.013 - lol he still didn't miss you Barge

[captain_jtkirk]

So.

What'd you crazy kids get up to while I was gone?

Shego, you can stop sticking your Kirk shaped voodoo doll with pins now.

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[lt-n-uhura.livejournal.com]

[She looked down to her clothes and snorted.] If it's someplace ridiculously cold, I'm going to blame you for letting me freeze. [She didn't mind the change, though. She just wanted the change in scenery.]

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[captain-jtkirk.livejournal.com]

"We'll just have to huddle together for warmth then." [Kirk sort of leered at her, though it lacked a lot of the conviction he usually had.]

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[lt-n-uhura.livejournal.com]

[Using her free hand, she wrapped an arm through his.] Sure, Jim. That's what we can do. [When they reached the CES, she used her item to unlock it and stepped back.]

You first.

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[captain-jtkirk.livejournal.com]

[Jim wasn't entirely sure if she was up to something. But he did it anyway, looking around at his surrounding curiously. It looked like a forest a night if he was guessing right.]

"Huh. That's weird."

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[lt-n-uhura.livejournal.com]

Was it not what you were expecting? [She stepped inside, though she kept her arm through his.]

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[captain-jtkirk.livejournal.com]

"I was hoping for a beach. Or an outdoor bar."

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[lt-n-uhura.livejournal.com]

You don't always get what you want. [She took a small drink and stepped inside, the leaves crunching under her feet.]

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[captain-jtkirk.livejournal.com]

"That is a bitter lesson I'm learning." [Jim was quiet for a moment, just content to walk before he finally blurted out what had been on his mind all day.]

"I think I get why you don't want to go back now."

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[lt-n-uhura.livejournal.com]

[She looked up to him.] Tell me why you think that.

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[captain-jtkirk.livejournal.com]

"Because it was weird as fuck interacting with them."

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[lt-n-uhura.livejournal.com]

[She rolled her eyes a bit at the language, but Paddy had cured her of that already anyway.]

Weird how?

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[captain-jtkirk.livejournal.com]

"They don't remember." [Kirk paused to take a drink.] "Or they do and they're really good about not giving any indication about it. And I don't think McCoy is that good of a liar. It was awkward. And I was scared I was going to forget all over again."

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[lt-n-uhura.livejournal.com]

[Uhura waved a hand about vaguely.] Once you've been through all of this, Jim, it's different. It's all different. Things change and you can't really...come back from that. They don't understand and they won't. Ever.

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[captain-jtkirk.livejournal.com]

"I don't want to forget about this place again. And I think that's just what happens when you go back home."

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[lt-n-uhura.livejournal.com]

[At that, she finished her drink in a hurry.] Maybe that's the big secret. [She moved away from him a bit, leaning against a tree.]

Maybe the Admiral is just cruel about that.

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[captain-jtkirk.livejournal.com]

"Then what's the point of bringing us here? To help people we won't end up remembering and traumatizing us in the process? No wonder he has to bribe people with deals because only the insane would do this for free."

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[lt-n-uhura.livejournal.com]

Maybe it doesn't happen to everyone? Maybe just certain people for certain reasons? [She really didn't have the answer to that.]

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[captain-jtkirk.livejournal.com]

[If Kirk was being logical, he could see why the crew of the Enterprise might be better off not remembering. Since they had so much on their plates, worrying about things they couldn't help would just distract them. And their mission had their own PTSD to deal with.]

"It's not fair."

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[lt-n-uhura.livejournal.com]

How do you know it's not fair? [It wasn't clear to her when she started to take the other side of the argument, but there she was. And she couldn't really stand down now.]

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[captain-jtkirk.livejournal.com]

[Later Kirk would deny this conversation ever happened. And that he was clearly intoxicated.]

"Because I don't want to be the only half of a relationship that remembers it going to shit and it makes me so mad to think that someday I'm going to go back and it will be like nothing ever happened."

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[lt-n-uhura.livejournal.com]

[Well now that was unexpected.]

Jim, what are you talking about?

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[captain-jtkirk.livejournal.com]

[Jim shook his head slightly and wouldn't meet her eye. He'd always been shit about talking about his emotions.]

"Nothing. I'm just... forget I said anything."

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[lt-n-uhura.livejournal.com]

[Placing her glass in a tree, she reached up to cup his cheeks in her hands.]

Jim. Talk to me. What happened?

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[captain-jtkirk.livejournal.com]

[Jim still didn't look up and after a long pause when he finally started talking it was hardly above a whisper.] "We weren't boyfriends or any stupid shit like that. But--I don't know. He never said bye or anything and I just. I'm so mad at him for something he doesn't even remember so I can't hold it against him really."

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[lt-n-uhura.livejournal.com]

[She wrapped her arms around his neck in a hug.] No, you can't. But it doesn't make it easier, does it?