captain_jtkirk | .044 - someone is just wishing to die

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.044 - someone is just wishing to die

There is no fucking way.

Fuck this again.

And fuck all of you.

I'm not him. I will never be him.

[Private to Shego]

You--[please don't be affected, please don't be Miss Go and know the bad Kirk :C] Where are you?

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[Why you call me Captain, buddy? I hate this place forever :C]

Don't call me that.

Begging your pardon, sir. I... Well I'm not sure I'm supposed to call you anything else. [He's pretty sure it's not the same Kirk. It will be the same Kirk again at some point. Treat him in a fashion that wouldn't piss off the same Kirk...]

Rhade, stop. I'm not-- just call me Jim. Or Kirk. Please.

[Little growl of uncertainty.

Pause.]

I can't. Sir.

In the past, referring to you disrespectfully, has not ended well. So I shouldn't belittle your position. It would be bad practice.

I don't care if you belittle me. I'm not him.

But, when you're gone, he'll still be here. So I need to continue treating him with the same amount of respect.

[He thinks. Maybe. He's not sure. He doesn't know. It might piss Kirk off he's being nice to this him. He might just be egoistically glad Rhade's playing along.]

He's just a man.

And men die all the time.

So do my men.

I'm still an officer. That place hasn't taken that out of me yet. No matter what else [you have] he has.

I'm sorry. For everything. I know what he's like.

Hm.

[He has to be careful, too. Despite the clean shaven face, now is the perfect opportunity to trick pesky little inmates like him. He can't give up any of his people, not knowing. Or not knowing if they can delete Kirk's memories as soon as he changes back to regular Kirk.]

Yes, well... he is a cunning strategist. If I knew someone's culture was based entirely on sex, and I completely lacked even a grain of moral fiber [he tries so very hard not to spit that part out] I could understand how it would keep someone manageable.

[It's not just torture here.]

Edited 2011-08-19 20:14 (UTC)

... what did he do?

Nothing you can apologize for. It's not your place.

[At least he's getting pretty certain this isn't the Kirk he knows.] His actions aren't yours.

[The lack of facial hair should really be the tip off.]

I can still protect you.

[He could have had the nefarious plan to shave! Kirk is crafty like that!]

I'm strong. I heal fast. I can take it. But there have already been people that died for me, and I can't keep letting that happen. Not when it doesn't stop anything.

[You don't get Enterprise by being stupid.]

If I gave you a phaser, would you use it on him?

I just asked for my force lance. But considering my warden turned tail and ran the first time I tried to come to him, a phaser wouldn't be objectionable.

[Kirk assumes that Rhade lives in the same place as on the Barge he knows. And as this will bump him back down to only having one phaser again, he doesn't care. He knocks softly.]

[He opens the door a smidge. His room is still the same. There aren't any weapons, because the Doctor never gave him more than his boneblades to defend himself with.

After confirming that it's Kirk, he opens it the rest of his way. Facial hair. Slicked back hair. Black tidy outfit. Someone's been doing his best to look the part so he gets left alone.

He backs a few steps away to give him all the leeway he wants. If it turns out that this is an elaborate trick, he wants to be able to put up his defenses and prepare himself.]

[Kirk wishes that this whole thing was a prank. Then he wouldn't feel so close to a nervous breakdown just because he was compared to the other Kirk, the one who works for the Empire and reminds this James Kirk too much of himself.]

"If I give you this, you have to swear to use it on no one but him."

[That gives him pause. And he looks off to a corner. He's no stranger to lying. But... not if Kirk could remember it. Not if he took this with him.

He rubs his mouth nervously.]

"I can't do that." [He smooths his hand over his hair.] "I can't make that promise."

"I would do it myself if we ever came face to face. But we won't, because of the flood. I'm not propagating anyone else getting hurt."

"You're not the only one who does it to me."

[Just the one who does the most often.]

[Jim winces, just a little bit. It's a slip of the tongue, he hopes but even being compared to the other Kirk makes him shudder.]

"Who are they?"

[It is, fortunately. His eyes dart in the direction of Una's room, next door, but he doesn't say any names though.]

"It doesn't matter. I can take it. I'm surviving. You're worried about other people getting hurt? So am I."

"So you offer yourself as a punching bag?"

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