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[captain_jtkirk]

Guess I have a career to fall back on if being a starship captain goes south.

[He is maybe inappropriately happy. BECAUSE HE DIDN'T SLEEP WITH SHEGO FOR ONCE, SCORE]

[Filtered to everyone he kidnapped or tried to or was a slave for him or was zapped by him]

Sorry about that.

[Private to Shego]

I feel like we should celebrate this momentous occasion.

[Private to Dick]

Thanks for grabbing me. [And hitting me over the head you douche]

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[with_discipline]

[What. Head tilt.] Why?

[captain-jtkirk.livejournal.com]

"Spock is fully capable of commanding Enterprise. And he's a better mediator than me. They don't need me." [And he wasn't sure how long this could take. It could be a week or it could be six months and he'd have no way to tell anyone here that.]

[with_discipline]

[Aaand she's leaning back to relax against the wall.] Have you resigned your commission?

[captain-jtkirk.livejournal.com]

"No." [He sighs.] "I've thought about it though."

[with_discipline]

Why? [Spill your soul, Cap'n.]

[captain-jtkirk.livejournal.com]

[If you insist.] "Because the idea of going back and commanding people I don't trust is not appealing. And I don't want to go back and forget everything here all over again either."

[with_discipline]

[Welp she's gonna consider that for a moment.] You don't trust them because they returned home.

[captain-jtkirk.livejournal.com]

"I don't trust them because they broke promises."

[with_discipline]

What promises were those?

[captain-jtkirk.livejournal.com]

[Jim doesn't answer for a long time because he stubbornly doesn't want to talk about it. But then he remembers that the reason he came to her was because she's seen it at all anyway. Though he resents her a little for asking.] "They promises not to leave. And they chose to do it anyway."

[with_discipline]

[She just wants to help. :c] Did you expect them to stay here forever?

[captain-jtkirk.livejournal.com]

"Yes. No. I expect people to stick to their word."

[with_discipline]

You asked them to stay indefinitely. Lieutenant Uhura graduated an inmate, nearly two. Commander Spock and Doctor McCoy seemed to have no control over their departures, on both occasions they were present. You are familiar with how frequently that can happen here.

[And she pauses, frowning a tiny bit because there was totes someone else, hmmm...oh yeah] My time aboard did not overlap long with Ensign Chekov. I don't recall in what manner he left.

[captain-jtkirk.livejournal.com]

[He hates her for being so logical.] "And you weren't hurt when Trip left the first time?"

[with_discipline]

[That gets a little frown, because everything from before coming back is a little blurry.] I was. [Especially since she turned into him less than a week later.] It was not reason to hate him.

[captain-jtkirk.livejournal.com]

"Well I'm petty and mean and I hold grudges like no one's business." [He was quiet and looking firmly at the floor before he added,] "What if I go back and help out and it takes forever and I forget everything? Again."

[with_discipline]

[She just arches an eyebrow at that first part because she isn't sure about mean. Maybe petty. And she believes the grudges.] It's infrequent that we receive messages from home. It may be important.

[Which is code for LOOK IN YOUR HEART AN DETERMINE WHICH IS MORE IMPORTANT.]

[captain-jtkirk.livejournal.com]

"Shego is important. I don't have to guess at that."

[with_discipline]

That is true. You have as much a duty to her as you do to Enterprise.

[captain-jtkirk.livejournal.com]

"You think I should Enterprise over her, anyway."

[with_discipline]

I think it's a decision you need to make for yourself. Would they have sent for you if they did not need you?

[captain-jtkirk.livejournal.com]

[It takes him a minute to answer because he doesn't like it.] "No."

[with_discipline]

[And she just inclines her head at that, eyebrow arched. Welp, Jim. What does that tell you.]

[captain-jtkirk.livejournal.com]

[Yeah, yeah he knows.] "She's going to hate me so much."

[with_discipline]

It's as likely that you will return without forgetting a thing as it is to forget. But in the event you do, perhaps you should leave yourself a detailed note.