[Kirk holds his breath for a moment, hesitating, he doesn't really even know Mal but maybe that's good. She doesn't have any expectations of him. He can be a mess in front of her, she's not on his crew, she didn't know him before he came here.]

I wasn't there. Not yet. I don't know. I don't even know when it happens. Just that his killer's still out there and I'm here.

[When he should be there, maybe he can stop it, maybe he can just kill the fucker who did it, both are appealing.]